When I was younger.. my brother and sisters were murdered in front of me because I couldn't get the burglars what they wanted. After that, a lot of things that happened in my life kept going, then I died too, and I can't accept being happy when I haven't been able to atone for that. Falling in love would be something that a normal person who can accept happiness can do. Accepting happiness means I'll stop existing in that afterlife and my soul will be reincarnated without ever doing anything for them. [ She hesitates for a moment, then laughs a little. ] This talk got kind of depressing.

[ ooc: sjhdgjlaks I hate staying home all day.. I hope you feel better. ;o; ]